Losing my Grip...Finding my Strengeth

Took me a little bit to figure out what to write about and what to post about.  In general, this week has been rough for me.  I found myself losing my grip on my weight management journey.  I'm frustrated that I still can't seem to get my food portions under control.  So I'm faltering on the ledge.

Even though I'm keeping the promise to work-out and complete my missions in the morning.  I find myself struggling with my food.  And seeing the scale either move down by a couple of ounces or move up by a couple of pounds...I lose my confidence.  I lose my grip on what I'm trying to achieve.  I know I'm not the only one.  I know seeing the scale up by chunks by only go down by ounces is very daunting.  It can break a small piece off inside of you.  A piece that you never realized that you had.  A piece that you want to control and can't figure out how to do it.

I know losing my grip on this part of my life just makes me want to control the other aspects of my life that much more.  I want everything to be perfect.  I want the house a certain way.  I want things to be picked up when they need to be.  If I'm running an errand and I have a specified time I want to be out, I need to be out at that time.  If my "everything" isn't perfect, I freak out and I get upset.  Because then I feel like I can't control anything in my life and I can't do anything right.

Losing the grip, teetering on the ledge of despair...can break a spirit down.  It can harm all the progress one makes to finally believe that they can do anything that they put their mind to.  That they can finally "Become what they believe." (Oprah Winfrey).  Losing that grip...they lose their belief.

Now, even though losing ones grip on any part of their life is easy to do...but finding the strength to move past this down fall...that is a work of art!!

How do you find your strength to move past this slip?  When you do, how do you use it to get where you are going to go?  How?

It's a simple question, but a hard one for most to answer.

Everyone's inner strength is different and comes from different things.  There are some things that are the same for everyone, for every strength.

Faith.  Belief.  Hope.  Support.

If we can find these again, then we can get back to where we were when we lost our grip.  We can step back from the ledge, slowly but surely.  We can learn to have faith in ourselves and trust the process.  We can learn to love ourselves again.  We can learn to believe in ourselves again.

It sounds so simple, but how do we get there.  I have learned, and I'm relearning everyday, to make SMART goals.

Small

Measurable

Attainable

Relevant

Time-Bound

My SMART goal is to get up to half my body weight in oz (87.5 oz) in water everyday for a week (7 straight days) starting 06/23.

This is one thing I have been lacking lately.  I live in AZ and should be drinking way more then this.  But starting Small, and working my way up is the right way to go.  I can do this.  This will be the first step to many in order to achieve my belief in myself and to achieve my transformation.